Forever and Always

Turning my head left and right all I could see were people shedding tears. This was my first ever funeral at age 4. You can tell this woman was loved by everyone,but I could not share that commonality. I have never met this woman to have any memories with. Watching my loved ones in despair made me cry along with them. This day was the day we were spiritually tied together for life.

My nana reigned from the island of St. Thomas. She was a free spirited woman that was ripped and ran the streets of the Bronx. She lived life on her terms and by any mean necessary. Due to some personal issues, she couldn’t mother to her fullest, but she made up for it by loving her grandbabies unconditionally.

Out of her 5 grandchildren, I am the only one that did not meet her physically. She made sure I was her bestfriend even in the after life. I used to laugh and talk in the back of the car and when asked why I was laughing or who I was talking to, I would say my nana was communicating with me. My nana made me feel like it was only us 2 in the world and her doing that made me the closest grandchild to her. I missed out on her physical touch, but she still left her mark on me spiritually.

My mom and I can have dreams about someone who has passed and help them pass over peacefully and my nana used to have visions too. An unfamiliar being came to me in my dreams. It was a short slim woman with an afro with beautiful brown skin. The woman took me to the past and they were trying to make up for their mistakes with my mom. My mom only had my oldest sister and they were in this New York apartment with the kitchen full of vibrant yellows. When I woke up and told my mom the dream, she said that was my nana and I described her perfectly. Although I never seen this woman, I didn’t feel sad or scared about the dream. I strangely felt comfortable and safe with the her in the dream. She was unfamiliar but was so familiar to my spirit I was not fearful for my wellbeing.

Having these experiences helped me with closure of me missing the opportunity to meet this loving spirit face to face. I’ve learned my nana is my bestfriend and she will always have my back. Guardian angels and deep spiritual connections are true and are a beautiful thing.